Not how, but why

Today, while carrying the baby and three loads of laundry across the apartment parking lot and up to our house I thought to myself, "I don't know how I do this?" Work, bills, laundry, cooking, cleaning, baby, and self; managing all of this alone. After considering this thought for a few minutes, I came to the conclusion...I don't know how, but I do know why. That is the reason I struggle with all of the physical and emotional stress and step up to all of the challenges I face on a daily basis, and that is the important part. My little A is a good reason to do every thing that I do on a daily basis and more if needed. It's hard to remember that fact when life is throwing you a curve, but it doesn't change the fact that it's still true. The best way I've found to keep that perspective is to look at A when he's sleeping and just think about the blessing he is to me. He is such a sweet child, a real blessing in my life, but he does bring significant challenges with him, but what child does? I know that I'm a single mother by choice, but I'm very glad that I made that choice. It's made me a better person in more ways that one. I've grown closer to God, I've learned who cares for me, I've found friends, shed friends who weren't genuine friends. I've learned so much about life, myself, and happiness. I'm so glad I've had the privilege of having A as my son.